Yayness

The psychologist answered my e-mail,and I will talk to my father about it,I hope he accept it,and maybe I will go to an encounter of transexuals in the transgroup.

Hope

I found a psychologist from my city that deal with the LGBT community,I will try to talk to her and see with my parents if I can change to her instead of my current one.
Sorry for not been posting
Bye

New Goal

Since I didnt came out earlier to get my high school years as a girl,I cant hope to pass without at least a year of hormones,so next year(my last year of high school)will be as a guy,sadly.
My Physical Ed teacher wanted the students of this year to write a letter to a important someone like it was written in 2016.In this year we will reunite and open this letter,and see if we made our dreams come true and what changed(we dont have high school reunions here I believe...)
My new goal is to be full time at 2016 or at least on hormones,but I hope to get there before,I want to live as a girl in university at least...
Bye

New School

Hi
My school(I've been here since last year)have since kindergarden and second year of high school(here in Brazil we have 3 high school years)so I have to leave.This school have another building in other area of my city,but the teachers are not the same(only one teach in both)it's sad,I'm used to these teachers and this school,the one that I will go now have a cold feeling to it,the one I'm now have a more "family" feel to it.
I regret not trying to be friends with people,and regret not coming out before so I could enjoy these 2 years as myself and with the friends I wish I had...
At least I came out this year...
I have a new goal now,I'll post it later
Bye

ps:here in Brazil,school year start in february and ends in december

Mother reaction is not getting better

Ok,so today after leaving the therapist's room and going to her reception area,my mother asked her if she didn't agree that I should cut my hair because is messy,then my therapist say that my mother should ask me why I don;'t want to cut my hair and said that we would talk next friday(may sound rude when I'm typing this but she was nice and polite).
My mother then asked me while whe were leaving,I said that is because I want long hair,she made it sound impossible to get long hair,but I could see at one point that she was quite sad,then while at the car she said that sometimes she feels like she is not living this,that I could be "happy" and everything.While it makes me sad,it makes me angry that she don't try to understand me,she thinks that I chose this to me and make herself as the victim in the hole thing.

Female Clothing I will wear

I already said that I love nice looking and fitting casual clothing,but I do with to wear female clothing when full time,I'm currently obsessed with high waist skirt or pencil skirt with tops,I think those are gourgeous.Short dresses with panyhoe and boots too,like those in the pictures.I'm in love with this green skort too*-*

just wanted to share,bye^^

Okay...

 My father wants me to keep at my current psychologist.I'm thinking of printing some theories about causes of transsexualism and show to her then,maybe say that I think it is kinda pointless to get to know where this start since if is biological or mental because it is all theory.

I feel kinda sad about that,I hope I can start hormones soon,no matter who is going to say that I can have them

Bye