Time for a update

The Lady of Shaloty-1888-J.W. Waterhouse

Hello
Regular classes already ended,now it's only for those who need for preparation for entering college.I attended the Geography one,because I like it very much,and planning on going on others too.Thing is,I believe I didn't passed the college test,the public college,the best one.My choices are either try again next year,doing this year again for preparation(what I want to,because I'm not really ready for college,and would love one more year with awesome teachers) or to go to paid college,which I passed.

I have a test tomorrow,last one.All subjects,like it's been all this year,but only 3 hours.I really need great grades on Physics and Chemistry,and I know I'm screwed,so much to think I may fail this year,and then,be forced to re-do it again,but as a regular year,not just preparation.

Looking back,the year seemed long,maybe because it was a new routine and school(like said before,same school but different building/area),but still I have that feeling it just flew away from my reach.I regret not trying making friends,and trying getting closer to teachers.I have my top 3 favorites,but they're all nice,and I do have a bit of a crush in one of the Biology ones.

Lot's of awful feelings over my body,my facial hair,manly hands...I wish I could had started hormones and could go full time next year.No therapy,my parents must pretend nothing's wrong.I'm just very sad about how this year turned out to be in some aspects,I wish I could be a normal girl.